The Way I Am

2011-12-03T17:27:00.000+08:00

情願做一個什麼也不懂的傻瓜..
也不要做一個想得太多的人......

2011-08-09T11:59:00.001+08:00

2011-08-06T22:10:00.003+08:00

looking back, i find myself very very different from the little me. There are a lot of things that make me be the way i am right now. Something in the past created me, the shy, emotional person who always keeps her feelings inside. It is really ironic that i was an exactly opposite person when i was small. I never hide my feelings and i never think before i speak. But being 'straightforward' merely leads to bad feelings. I had enough of complaint, and i've decided to become this quiet person i've chosen to be. And this, is The Way I Am, created by the past.

Critical Thinking

2010-11-09T17:42:00.005+08:00

Thinking about your thinking, while you are thinking, in order to make your thinking better.
-Richard Paul

Tears

2010-09-04T19:28:00.003+08:00

Indeed, 'tears' is the best comforter in the world.
In fact, weaping could make you feel better.

D stands for Desperate

2010-08-26T21:17:00.005+08:00

i can't stop my tears. for some reasons, i reali can't.
There are so too reasons causing my tears to come out one by one.
Desperately, I hate myself.
I just don't know how to explain this. I can never ever express my feelings in words. perhaps, locking myself up in the toilet is the best way to calm myself down.

Upception TRAILER 3 HD - Recut Mash Up

2010-08-13T10:29:00.000+08:00

inception

2010-08-02T18:41:00.006+08:00

insanely brilliant

lazzzyyyy

2010-07-30T14:37:00.005+08:00

After yesterday's fever, headache, I'm so tired that i can do nothing. well, yea, i know, i'm' lazy. i have to admit that honestly. anyway, i just dun hv the mood to work~
To Do List:

1. finish recording dad's questionaire thingy.. and get $150 in return
2. Finish the big pile of theory homework, due tonight (gosh, still hvn't done any) <= is that wrong grammar? well, anyway
3. finish the whole math excersice book(help, that sucks)
4. play the piano
Well, I know that's not so serious, but i'm really not ready to use my brain. i'm just not ready for the new start, for the new school year! i just can't imagine how busy i would be in september. Theory, Japanese, 5 more new subjects!!! Gosh, I need help!

I'm feelin green

2010-07-26T16:32:00.005+08:00

"Save the environment!"
"Save the earth!"
I reali wanna become one of the protesters, trying their best to save the earth.
How come ppl don't get how important this is? We, people are too selfish. We are so selfish that for improving our lifes, we murder. Polar bears are waiting for us. A lot of animals and creatures are in help. They need us and they are waiting for our helping hand. I wish, wholeheartedly, that one day, everyone in the world would have the same aim ：save the earth ：）

Weep

2010-07-12T15:23:00.004+08:00

do you find that weeping is the best way of expressing sadness? or even happiness sometimes. Well, I do. I don't mean weeping in front of a large bunch of people. My definition of weeping is to lock yourself up in a quiet room (alone) and cry. To me, this is the best way ever to express sadness. After weeping for around 15 min. I feel much better. Well, a bit better. I just love locking myself in a room when I'm unhappy. It do work on me.

laziness

2010-06-14T18:49:00.002+08:00

"laziness is a habit of resting before you get tired." this is the definition of "laziness" and it is perfectly normal. everyone is lazy, i believe. it just depends on how lazy you are. and i'm definitely sure that i'm one of those seriously-lazy-people. well, i'm becoming lazier and lazier as i grow up. computers and all sorts of electronic devices are like devils. well, they are, in some circumstances, positive. but they could be negative, in some other circumstances. For me, i'm addicted into the internet and i just can't live without it. however, i noe this is not a positive attitude, but this is just fixed naturally and i just can't help.

exaMS

2010-04-21T18:10:00.002+08:00

sigh.....so worried, actually, i'm not reali worried about the exams..i mean of course i do care about them...well, I can say this..30% worried about the exams and 70% worried about sth else...:/
I'm in my exam period now, but i'm not revising right now, at this moment coz...i'm lazy and...the subject i'm going to have the exam tmr is quite easy..xp..well, i'll revise right after the post, i reali promise
so today, my exam..is quite gd, but well, of course there's some mistakes..but so far..it's pretty successful. anyways, ppl, my friends are all avoiding to touch the computer now, (you can say except me) coz in my chat list, no friends, in facebook, can't even see anyone (in my grade) online...weird and lonely right now..lol
and the "sth else" in the first paragrah up there...is about sth on saturday. SInce I'm going to Form one next year, I have to have a placement test in Senior school on Sat. ANd everyone needs to have Math, Eng and Chi exam of coz. then after these three exams. The PTH exam is optional and we can choose and obviously if you chose it, you can have some advantages or blabla and then, I FORGOT IF I CHOSE TO HAVE THE TEST OR NOT...OMG...wat should i do...nobody in my family knows, not my frinds of course, ...=/ this is driving me crazy...it's worse than my exams....Should I stay after and Have that test? or should i just pretend i duno anything and go away?
well, This is my.."estimation", i think
60% chose to have the pth exam
40% did not choose
well 40%........I"m reali reali not sure..but i think i'm going to stay after.. and with my fervent hope, I wish they would tell us who chose to take the exam and who didn't chose to take it...SIGH....BLESS ME

Japan

2010-04-05T22:35:00.003+08:00

Going to japan tmr!!!! hurray....well, on the other side, i'm reali worried about my school work! It's almost the end of the easter holiday already..and i Gotta read chinese cinderella for my eng book report, but it's sort of thick for me...and i read reali slow...worried that i wouldn't hav time to finish it! second, exam is coming soon....i'm so oooo WORRIED (again) about it!!!! There's a lot of things to revise...and the exam to go to the senior school is so freaking hard....sigh....SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOS!!! XD
anyways, i'm going to japan tmr! cheer up! =] THis time, i'm going just wif my mom, but not wif my brother and father, coz they have to revise for the Alevel thingy...well, it's a pity that we cannot go wif them...but japan sort of equals to shopping and...well, shopping sort of equals to female!!! XD so.....BUT I'M SURE , 100% SURE, I'M GOIN TO MISS THEM....well, let's continue about shopping in japan..:D i'm planning to buy...earphones (one for me, one for brother) ...and...um, backpacks (one for me, one for brother too :) and....some bags or...stationary, yeah, something like that.
By the way, i've gotta wake up reali reali early tmr..coz .....the flight is freakin early..it's around 8 o'clock in the morning...wow..and i hav to wake up at around 5 sumthing tmr ....OMG.....well, but mom promised me that if i can wake up early tmr, she'll give me extra money for shopping..XD....Photos will be posted next time! (well, if I have time to do so)...Anyways, gotta end this post now..and slp early!!! Wish me a good trip tmr! XD btw, HAPPY EASTER!!!! :) bye..!!!

alice in the wonderland

2010-03-20T16:50:00.004+08:00

splendid movie, adventurous...and..fabulous..lol, still recalling the scenes when i was revising my test. reali great, though everyone knows the ending...
incredible 3D effect...especially when alice was falling into the hole..
meaningfull too, =] and quite funny..=) the white rabbit and the pair of twins...etc. were very cute and amusing..:p
annehathaway, johnney depp and the person acting alice ...they're reali fantastic... ^.^
LUV THIS MOVIE and the SOUNDTRACK!!!! <3

well...

2010-03-19T17:35:00.002+08:00

well,...i ..erm. admit that i'm a lazy student..lol..but to my speculation, more than 50% of students...in my school, i mean my class, maybe, are lazy..lol..pointless speculation..haha..however, before i write this post, i was reali bored..and without any reasons, i just realized that..I still have to revise for my gs2 test, and my chinese dictation which is reali reali hard!!!!!! well, i'll watch alice in the wonderland tmr...!!! happy..XD..so..i've gotta revise now..duno if i'll fail this task coz i usually do fail...lol, anyways, i've gotta try this, so post again later this ..month! bye!

OH MY GOD

2010-03-12T17:43:00.002+08:00

sigh..i totally forgot about my grandparents this week as there was a lot of tests, around 5 days i haven't phoned them...they , i mean my grandma MUST be very angry, sigh, and i gotta call them later, right after this post. However, i'm reali nervous, coz my grandma might scold me or might say something like "You don't miss me at all, do you? You're so busy, right?" well, actually, it's something that annoys ppl..and i reali...reali....hate this situation...sighsighsighsighsigh

My friend, nicole went to australia. reali reali wanna go away from hk like her..actually, i dun hate hk, but i reali luv living in foreign countries..it gives me a peaceful feeling...and i reali reali luv it..like those green trees, and the environment ..I extremely admire them. lol...however, i'm in hk now...and..i should concentrate here.

totally pointless post

2010-03-06T21:20:00.003+08:00

long time no post...:D
tests, things...lotz of things..feeling...feeling the busy days in form 1...feeling..and understanding how busy and horrible sku days are in form..lol
oyes.by the way, I REALI WANNA WATCH "ALICE IN THE WONDERLAND"...er...my...er...easter wish....gotta watch it!!!! well, if i reali couldn't watch it, then..my easter wish would be...um...have gd results in the coming exams..pre-S1 things..sigh...things are getting harder and harder...just can't imagine how hard will they be in form..lol..
duno why, i want exam...wanna revise exam instead of tests..well, there's a reason: revising exams..so it's like the last time to revise....and after that "last time" then i could enjoy..and relax..lol...duno if u understand or not..:D
anyways, happy early-easter!!!

Hamster

2010-02-22T17:10:00.001+08:00

My bday presents

2010-02-11T20:51:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the late post after my birthday. These are my bday presents..xddd =]
THANKS FRIENDS, FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY WISHES AND PRESENTS..:D

birthday-sickness

2010-02-04T17:29:00.003+08:00

it's the third or second time....i'm sick on/just before my birthday....sigh.....
my brother...how dare did he stay in my room and infect me... ..coughing.. .sneezing ...so tired...
Last time, i was about to have an icecream birthday cake, and i had a diarrhea.
This time, I can almost eat this icecream cake...(I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR AGES!!!), and i'm coughing.....
tmr night, my birthday, i still have to eat my relatives...look...how unfair is this world.
however..hope i could go to school tmr..coz i reali wanna reveal the birthday presents..XD...greedy me...

DGS is so scary

2010-01-28T22:34:00.002+08:00

guys, you know what, actually, people in my school are extremely wicked... and it's reali hard to find a true friend!!! everyone is like doing something bad behind you...

However, a few days later, my birthday will come!!! reali hope i can have more presents..haha..but i don't think i will have more than last year..coz...just dunno how to explain my friendship now...so complicated...and reali don't know why the teachers can see everything we write in facebook. they even who and who are enemies..etc..they're just like spies..lol..rolf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Devil Wears Prada - Suddenly I See

2010-01-23T13:05:00.002+08:00

THIS IS REALI GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!

books

2009-12-29T18:07:00.000+08:00

REALI REALI REALI WANT THIS SET OF BOOKS!!! but it's quite expensive..: $228 or $288..forgot..i hope i can buy it..well..after the new year..maybe..coz i reali dun hav much money now...=]..hope my wish could come true!!!!!!! my christmas or new year wish...=]

sigh

2009-12-17T21:02:00.002+08:00

I did something quite wrong...i'm becoming like...worser and worser...just dunno why and i just can't control myself..it's like..i'm stepping deeper and deeper but i can't get out..just quite puzzled..
hOWEVER, it's quite fun..in the mini bazaar..first year controling a stall...laughed a lot today..=]
hate hackers..my twitter is hacked..and i dunno if I should make a new account...lol..hate thinking of cool usernames...haha

Christmas

2009-12-13T17:33:00.002+08:00

Hi blogger, haven't update since a long time ago..I've got a lot to talk about..first, i went to macau, then i went to shen zhen and i've got to do two peices of homework about them..sigh......for my exams(long time ago) i'm sorry that i haven't update about it..well, it's quite good. However, for more details about going to shen zhen and macau this week with my friends, please visit my facebook as i'll upload some photos there later....=]
Christmas is coming ..quite excited!!! and i'm busy with the christmas presents which i'm goin to giv my friends.. they've bought some wonderful things for me too! one of my friends gave me an advent calender which is very special..u can eat a chocolate each day...i ate a lot already though it's not yet the time i should eat...=p
Excited about my schoo's mini bazaar too..there are loads of things to play and to buy..and this year is my first year to sorta "control" a game stall..well, I don't reali wanna control it, just wanna be the person who shop and play games..=]

before

2009-11-26T14:55:00.003+08:00

I get this new post today(exams haven't even started!) coz I have a fever. It's a scool holiday today..but it's just like my sick leave holiday..lol..
I'm very tired and i just haven't reali studied today....please, let me go to school tmr, and recover today..maybe at 5 o'clock? it's 3 o'clock now. I hope my wish'll come true..=[

Exams

2009-11-25T20:43:00.004+08:00

exams are coming..there's a holiday tmr, and exams'll start on friday. I'm reali scared about the subject "CHINESE". My writing is extremely bad and i haven't finished revising!
reali hope that i could get Bs at least. couldn't even concentrate since i'm always thinking about the days after exams, playing with my friends and my computer. i just always end up facebooking when i tried to revise.
i've got to shut down my compu now and concentrate... study! so goodbye for now, blogspot.... i'll post another one after i recieve my exams..i hope..if i can...=p
Good luck to my self.=]

suffering from diarrhea

2009-11-13T22:20:00.002+08:00

my stomach is reali painful..can't sleep well at night...gotta go to the toilet every half an hour...wanna vomit all the time...can't eat or drink anything i want...duh..hate this...
it's been 5 days already...when will it end??? come one, i'm becoming slimmer, slimmer and slimmer...sigh..

favourites

2009-11-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, this is a reali good magazine...there're many facts, entertaining stuff, fun facts etc. I luv the few pages about the movies..there're many pixar cartoons in one of the "lists", and i luv pixars movie, especially Up, Finding Nemo, Incredibles and Toy Story ..
there's toy story3 coming up, reali looking forward to watching it!!!
there are just reali a few books in the library, my school library worthe reading..this is one of them..and i was reali happy that my friend found this book somewhere in the library corner..lol...
My favourite actress: Anne Hathaway, Anjelina Jolie
My favourite singer: Fergie, Alica Keys, Taylor Swift, Jason Mraz, James Blunt, Colbie Caillat (lol, so many)
dunno why i wrote my favourites suddenly, just..wanna do so..lol..

2009-11-05T18:14:00.000+08:00

Chatting with my friend...using skype...lol..........

2009-11-05T18:11:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, i was just wondering which book i'd like to read...Saw the "captions" and covers of sophie kinsella's books, they sound quite good..which book should i choose?...thinking..

My best, and scariest halloween

2009-11-01T12:21:00.002+08:00

went to my friend's house to trick or treat last night...reali had a scary halloween. some other teenagers were chasing after us..stealing our candies..four of us, janice, me, samantha and her little brother ran ...we ran by stairs, they chase by a lift..it was reali exciting..well, though janice was lost..coz we were so frightened that three of us ran to the left stairs, and janice ran to the right. it's just like movies..chased after by the bad guys..haha..great night...The best halloween i've ever had....many sweets were got too..just luv that place..hope i could live in hk island...

when i was......

2009-11-01T12:15:00.000+08:00

looking at my friend's little brother...and other kids sometimes ofcourse...especially my p.1, she's just like me..i feel that i'm reali annoying when i was small..i'm sorta slightly older now..and i know i'm reali ...dunno what to say..well, wish that i knew that when i was small...

Chinese test....

2009-10-31T09:34:00.002+08:00

reali bad at chinese.....dun hav time to finish the entire test..it's just 1hr for lots of things u know...will surely be "dead" on mon when the tests are given out..

2009-10-25T12:36:00.002+08:00

It's much more better now..life became sorta easier. though i still have those stressed-feelings, i'm better now..well..my results in tests are like worse...than i was in P.5...but it's acceptable..there's not many time for me to revise. i hope that we could buy time with money. i'll buy a day for sure if i could. listening listening to music, i felt better. gotta revise this dreadful chinese test. i hate chinese...it's reali hard and there're many things to memorise..those words are hard to write and pronounce and they're difficult to understand the meaning. the hardest subject of all. on friday. and i still haven't touched it. i know i'm sorta lazy but i reali can't help it. good luck to myself....

Stressed

2009-10-08T21:17:00.002+08:00

I want to let this feeling out. I'm very very helpless. I tried to think of a person to tell. but i can't. if i tell, i'll probably cry and cry as i can't control. I just can't bare not to cry.
I'm just really dissapointed and I hate myself. I dislike myself. I just wanna punch myself and kill myself. but i can't. can i just cry for a minute, and the stress, the dissapointment, the sad feelings, bad feelings go away? I wish I could do so, then i could just stay and the toilet and cry out loud. cry as much as i want. but i can't.
the three things letting me hav bad feelings:
-my piano exam results. I'm so scared. and dissapointed. i've given out almost my whole life on practising. I wanna die. what's happening? I just wanna kill myself. I dunno how to face my parents and my piano teacher. I can't face myself!!! I want somebody to talk to..but i can't. nobody wants to hear me. And I can't tell anyone coz if I tell, I'll cry immediately. even though i'm tyipng now, i'm crying a bit. I'm scared. I don't want to hav this feeling until i get back my results. and if my results is reali that bad. I'll hav this feeling for my rest of my life. I don't want. I don't want to get ther results for ever and ever!
-my mp4 is broken. the only way to get away my stress and bad feelings. i dunno what's happening to me. I don't wanna hurt anyone. but i can't control. i wanna cry right now and go to the toilet but ron is inside and i hav to control myself. I'm so tired. it's so difficult.
-well, this is just a minor problem. There're many things for me to revise and to study that and study this. well, i'm a student so it's okay to study these.
but i just can't stand the two extra stress. I can't stand for a long time. I'm not happy even though there's a holiday tmr. it's not normal. I know it's bad to keep the feelings deep deep in my heart. but i cant talk to anyone. since i just start the first word, i just think of the people around me, they want me to get a good result they're good to me. they're nic eto me. but i'm just thinking why i'm this bad? o shit. i just wanna go to the toilet and now, my maid went inside. SHIT!

Piano Exam

2009-10-07T19:14:00.003+08:00

This is my hope. But i'm stressed. What if I played a few notes wrong?
Tomorrow, I'm going to have my piano exam. I'm sososososo scared..i wanna get my exam finished, but i'm so scared to do this exam..
well, i hav a holiday on 9.10 as a reward after my stress... i hope, i reali hope that i can relax and get a distinction and i must do well in my scales..i always come up with questions.but i try not to think about them. I try not to think about things that let me more stress. i try to relax. RELAX!!!!
k, good luck ,rachel, you'll do it.

You're Driving Me Crazy

2009-10-01T11:43:00.002+08:00

My piano exam, my MP4, my piano teacher, my school, my class, my homework!, my everything!!! They're all driving me crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wanna stop everything and I just wanna hear songs I like to relax a bit. I can't. Came home from my piano lesson, tired. I happily tried to turn on my MP4 hoping that i can relax with hearing my favourite songs. I CAN'T. It's so expensive but it's just a broken Mp4. i can't turn it on!!! why? why it's broken at this time but not later and earlier? Everything is going to make me insane. I wanna stop. just wanna go back but i can't.
I hope my Mp4 can turn back to normal. I hope that everything can turn back to normal just in a second. can't it?
It's my all.Yes, i know i've been so mean to you before sometimes. but can i just say sorry to you? so that you can turn back to normal? and I promise i wont be mean to you forever and ever and ever. I'll use you instead of the computer. Please, wake up. I'm waiting for you.

Complicated

2009-09-25T19:08:00.002+08:00

This is so complicated. I don't know...There's a lot of things happening in this week and I don't wanna participate in that fucking choir! It's making me so annoying. The teachers need us to participate!!! I hate this Primary. I wanna be in Form1 as fast as i could I don't want any teachers telling me i can't do this and do that(with annoying reasons) For example, i can't write in the blackboard, well, i'm boring, so i wanna write? why i can't? i hate her! i hate the teacher. can she shut up? and i hate being in this class: 6C
It's the worst class i've ever had. i can't stop! i wanna make the teacher disappear forever. she's making me uncomfortable! FORM1, you're my hope.

P.5 and P.6

2009-09-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

I'm a P.6 and I miss P.5 very very much. Especially the teachers! Ms Chan, my P.5 class teacher is my favourite teacher in the entire school. She's an environmental friendly person. I really miss her. She've left DGJS this summer holiday. I hope she could me my class teacher this year as well. Miss her a lot. There's been more and more homework given in P.6. How can I do all of them if I have to revise for tests later? Will form.1 be much much more busier than this? Thousands of questions came when I was dreaming before I sleep. I have a new computer in this summer. My own computer. It is making me want to play with it but I can't. I have to control myself from doing something else before i get my homework finish. Everytime I think about my homework or about my school, I felt very annoyed. I'll try to think of another thing immediately. I don't know why I'm so annoyed. That's how i feel.

Rabbit? Hamster?

2009-09-12T11:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, mum told me that one of her friends want somebody to adopt a rabbit. I like rabbits and i want it for sure. but the problem is ...where can I put it? Will I have enough time to take care of it? Will dad agree with it?(Mum'll agree it for sure) Mum said that the rabbit is just like a puppy. it likes to walk around and the speciallest thing is that it can poop or wee in her own cage! well, so it's not really a great problem getting her, right? but are you sure that dad won't disagree? What should I do? there's not always a chance to adopt someone's healthy rabbit. Should I use my brain and think of ways? or should I just ignore it and continue on my school work? I want to take care of it. but those problems are..making me hesitate.....

Colbie Caillat!!!

2009-09-11T22:15:00.001+08:00

Many Blogs

2009-09-11T16:39:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone, this is my...dunno...it's my 3rd or 4th blog. I've tried xanga, yahoo blog, my space..and things. I'm just working out which one is the best. Well, I'm a Chinese..(HK) Just thinking if I should write in English or in Chinese. Wanna improve in both subjects..xd
I hope i'm using the best blog right now..xd
these are my other blogs:
hk.myblog.yahoo.com/rachelau25
rachelau25.xanga.com
I usually use the yahoo blog..in chinese..and now..I'm using this one in English...So that I can improve my English too.
So please look at my other blogs if you have time! xd